“am I depressed?” up whenever I started to think too much. And of course, as I said earlier that one came more than one time.

Growing up. That's something I'm still trying to understand. As I try to reflect on what I've been through, I never touch it. I do always run from situations that possibly can make me more mature. I think I just realized it lately. At the end of the day, I'm not making progress at all. Now I'm in a state of trying to accept my weakness to another level. 

I've to unlearn, rethink, and relearn many things. It is going to be hard. I've always wanted special support from someone. But that one isn't gonna come suddenly. The last time I got it, it was between August or October.

 

That was quite refreshing for me. After telling some purpose I wanna achieve and there's someone who prayed for my luck, despite I don't know I do still wanna same purpose or not, despite can I make it or not. It was refreshing. I hope she's doing her life fine. May Allah protects her always, despite is she gonna be with me or not. 

In the end, this writing isn't about questioning am I depressed right now or not? It is a reflection and a bit of refreshment. Ah, still I wanna get some support right now.